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Saturday, September 20, 2008
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Qin & Kendiee -> June 5th, 2008.
Zelle & Yuen -> Sept 19th, 2008.
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Kendiee ♥blogged @ 6:26 PM
when the lion fell in love with the lamb..
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Taking It Back..
Okay, I'm not sure about this. I might not be sober. HAHA
But I think I'm taking back what I said.
I think I misunderstood a lot.
But I need to really fix this soon.
I hate arguments, I hate it very much, seriously!
I can't stand it being very long.
and Nazim, if you're reading this, you know I Love You
and I really really miss you.
I hope you do too. I'm looking forward of seeing you after Ramadhan =')
I'm leaving really soon so yeah..
I just hope we talk soon, tell me instantly if I've done something wrong.
I know you're busy, but I hope you read this ASAP.
I gotta hit the sack now, alright. so yeah. Chao!
and if I don't wake up.............
But I think I'm taking back what I said.
I think I misunderstood a lot.
But I need to really fix this soon.
I hate arguments, I hate it very much, seriously!
I can't stand it being very long.
and Nazim, if you're reading this, you know I Love You
and I really really miss you.
I hope you do too. I'm looking forward of seeing you after Ramadhan =')
I'm leaving really soon so yeah..
I just hope we talk soon, tell me instantly if I've done something wrong.
I know you're busy, but I hope you read this ASAP.
I gotta hit the sack now, alright. so yeah. Chao!
and if I don't wake up.............
DRAMA, is it your thing?
Yuen, stop being a drama girl!
How can I not be one when I just really really miss someone so, badly?
How do you explain that?
Should I shut up? Just say yes and I will definitely shut up!
Don't you have a minute? not even a second?
I like it better when you don't say anything,
so then I would've not been expecting anything good right now.
Was it my fault? So,
tell me, what have I done wrong?
sick of me? sure, leave me. That's what you're good at anyway.
I feel like I've been taken for granted, do you know that?
Oh well, I don't think so anyway, because you're busy.
All the way, not even a minute time free.
Have you any idea why am I doing this?
I wish you knew how does it feel.
You know too much that I love you so much.
Very clever.. Good! Good that you know.
but it's bad in the way that it's been taken for granted.
So here I am, keeping myself busy and try not to think about any other things
but my work, just work, work, work.
How does that sound like? Not enough?
Well I'm sorry for being dramatic.
Yes, another sorry, sorry everyday.
what else to be sorry about? tell me!
How can I not be one when I just really really miss someone so, badly?
How do you explain that?
Should I shut up? Just say yes and I will definitely shut up!
Don't you have a minute? not even a second?
I like it better when you don't say anything,
so then I would've not been expecting anything good right now.
Was it my fault? So,
tell me, what have I done wrong?
sick of me? sure, leave me. That's what you're good at anyway.
I feel like I've been taken for granted, do you know that?
Oh well, I don't think so anyway, because you're busy.
All the way, not even a minute time free.
Have you any idea why am I doing this?
I wish you knew how does it feel.
You know too much that I love you so much.
Very clever.. Good! Good that you know.
but it's bad in the way that it's been taken for granted.
So here I am, keeping myself busy and try not to think about any other things
but my work, just work, work, work.
How does that sound like? Not enough?
Well I'm sorry for being dramatic.
Yes, another sorry, sorry everyday.
what else to be sorry about? tell me!
Sorry people, I know you don't know what I'm talking about, I just want to let it out.
Friday, September 19, 2008
I miss SUNSHINE..
I feel cold, but I'm not numb, I'm dull abit. What else?
A drama young lady. I am blank. I love life.
I'm happy today for having Zelle, Nick, and Qin around (MSN) HAHAH.
Daaaaaaammmnnn.. I'm freakin freezing here in my room. HAHA! I feel shiett.. but gladly, didn't feel bored today. Wooo! I like myself being really busy.. You know I don't like being a bum! I don't like sleeping, I don't like watching TV. I'd love to be on the computer working, reading, dancing, singing, but hellnah, I don't like doing useless stuffs. Need to do what I gotta do first, because I don't wanna end up regreting again x_x"" that'd make me really pissed! even when I over sleep, I hate it.
so today.. Zelle not sleeping over. HAHA. hm, maybe tomorrow? and the pictures, later ok sis? arhhh.. I'm blank right now, seriously. Post tomorrow lah. and oh shxt! I just remember, I have classes tomorrow. Bah bouncing off~ *bounce* Cheerios!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
C0z I had a bad day, that's why..
GRRRR. I can't believe I don't like my home anymore. I used to have a lot of things to do here and now I just miss the air, the people outside. Why just can't I be out? Maybe you know why. Do you know what I did today at home?
You know what I'm happy about today?
PARENTS ARE NOT HOME TOMORROW UNTIL SATURDAY AFTERNOON!
ZELLE AND I having SLUMBER PARTY tomorrow; well, so-called~
I might SNEAK, okay? so you only you readers know this.
I am NOT going to school on Saturday. I'll get the answers from Chin2x sjaler, when she sleeps over to my place, maybe I'd bring Zelle-baby also :) HAHA
You know why I'm not happy?
because..............................................................
I'm not having a good day, I don't know what to do. I didn't hit the books today, it's blasting my head. I need the outside people =( oh well, yes I sneaked out to Mamih just now. I need to go down for something with my youngest bro Hou and his friend, but still, no people to look at, didn't go down since the 22nd of August. and oh! I saw "JAY WALL" cpa tue? HAHA!
I have nobody to talk to, bestfriends not in Bandar. They're at KB =( weh! I want to go, but I can't. I never asked for the permission because I hate their NOs, and I can't stand it when I hear it, I'd have to cover my ears, SERIOUSLY!
So, can I go out the Mall on Saturday? IDTS!
Because....parents not at home. UNLESS, you'd sneak me out~ NO SHIET!
no can do! they're not letting me out, bitxh! nah, I don't know. I'm being a pessimist today, because I can't seem to find anything good to do. NO! NO BOOKS TODAY K! STRESSING~
and someone has been ignoring me. BOOOOOOO!!! napakan ih?! left me sudah~
no no, maybe I misunderstood? you think? ambung ambung~
so what else? what's my plan tomorrow ah? maybe I'd do some arts? for nothing~ x___x""
for fun, I guess. nothing to do bah! I want my friends to come over =( since I can't go out YET.
I can't wait till RAYA! I can't wait to see Zelle! and school and and esp baby =(
Thanks to Fei for watching Ugly Betty with me today, though. Sis, I love you! HAHA!
Thanks for the little entertainment you gave me today. since I myself being crap today looking for something to do. it's really boreng here okay. nada lgi mee goreng~ HA! apakann!
and oh! Fei and I are now hiding from some small COCKroach! eh? how to spell?
plus... my ass hit the floors of my bathroom just now. Slipped! GILA! sakit juburku ah.
Bah.. hope you guys having a good holiday, yeah.
"I'm the man!" shiet.shiet.shiet. 8o|
I miss my man :(
I miss my man :(
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
17; 18; 19; Birthdays.
To A lovely sister of my best friend Chrysh's brand new sixteen-year-old
sister+young lady who goes by the name Kathleen ;)
you are greeted as wish, Happy Sweet Sixteen!
just be a good one, we all love you :)
Hope you had the best sixteenth birthday! =)
16 is also special, you see ;]
very sorry, I couldn't have anything else for you on your birthday..
there's just some a bit of minor problems with my family =/
and about birthdays. anyhoos, I hope you had a good one.
Soz can't be with you guys tomorrow at KB =(
It's very sad! I hate it! I wish I could go~
I miss all the church people so much.
love from,
MYCKz's "Y" takes the dancing..
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School was great today.
Loved the almost-winter-feeling weather xD
But it's...I don't know.. I just really miss baby a lot~
"when do I get to see you again?"
I hope I'm able to go out on Saturday (20th Sept)
anybody care to hang with me? ..ZELLE come with me! xP
and Azim! and Nazim, of course, if he's free and if there's nothing lah..
so afternoon, I cleaned up a little in my place here,
studied a little bit, just a little bit, seriously..
and subject t'was History..
then I've been watching Ugly Betty, AGAIN.
I actually want something more interesting to watch,
like could get me more EXCITED~ xD
HAHAHA no people, it's not what you're thinking, it's definitely NOT porn.
I want action, something that'd make me nervous, but NOT porn..
"perhaps you could take me out for a movie, yeh?"
"and take me just anywhere with you~"
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Hm, I want to greet Mr. Nikki Osman in advance now
his birthday is tomorrow! xD
One of my best friends's him, actually ;]
the man who'd listen to problems and would always try to help..
I've known that "MAN" for like years now
but it seems weird sometimes.. HAHA
I'm so jealous, he could drive already..
Yes mr. so-called-hot-LADY, I envy you! GRRR.
anyhoos, you know I love you ^^ , good friends, remember? :)
and and.. let me tell you, you're one of the best!
okay I've run out of words for you.. HAHA
just hope you'll have a really good day tomorrow.
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, Nickos-Machicos!
19, drive me on a highway.
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and oh! you know what? I'm eating something I'm not suppose to eat right now..
know what it is? it's FRIES x____x""
fat, and oily~ that'd just make me fat too, donchuu think so?
HAHAH kidding~ it doesn't matter much anyway.. just today xP
gawh, I'm really sleepy now.
My eye are dropping now.. x____x""
Head off to beds, sweeties. Mwakz!
Labels: Happy Birthday, MYCKz, Nikki, Porn, Zeee Mall
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
197; Grudge.
REPOSTED; 197 Posts.
but this is like my 178th Published Post. HAHAH!
Anyhoos, I feel good now, I'm watching Passport to Paris, AGAIN.
Romantic Young People In Paris are one of I adores xD
I wish to go there one day.
I can say I love being romantic, I love the way it makes me feel.
So ride me on a motor bike and ride me all the way happily~
alright alright, so what happened today?
Morning; school..
P.E. sucks, skipped them because of my friends.
and my long jump test! FCUK! I haven't take them and it's too late!
I even think one of my friends are happy c0z I got zero for that!
okay so I got sick later on..
watched Ugly Betty (I know right! I'm so late, Imma watch GOSSIP GIRLS later)
and then yeah..
night; dad confirmed leaving on the 24th;
dinner, this movie to paris now xD
I'm glad the movies making me distracted and
I can actually put my problems aside.
I still have classes tomorrow. 8:30am ~ 11:10am
Signing off again.
but this is like my 178th Published Post. HAHAH!
Anyhoos, I feel good now, I'm watching Passport to Paris, AGAIN.
Romantic Young People In Paris are one of I adores xD
I wish to go there one day.
I can say I love being romantic, I love the way it makes me feel.
So ride me on a motor bike and ride me all the way happily~
alright alright, so what happened today?
Morning; school..
P.E. sucks, skipped them because of my friends.
and my long jump test! FCUK! I haven't take them and it's too late!
I even think one of my friends are happy c0z I got zero for that!
okay so I got sick later on..
watched Ugly Betty (I know right! I'm so late, Imma watch GOSSIP GIRLS later)
and then yeah..
night; dad confirmed leaving on the 24th;
dinner, this movie to paris now xD
I'm glad the movies making me distracted and
I can actually put my problems aside.
I still have classes tomorrow. 8:30am ~ 11:10am
Signing off again.
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You'll understand me if you were in my shoes.
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Sometimes I wish I was adopted by some rich person, though not famous, I don't wish for that, I just wish I could be free like the others, and although I know I won't feel any much family's love.
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I think something's wrong with me, lately.
I don't think I've been myself.
I've been hating myself, also..
GRRRRRRR!!
Now I believe what others say that life is unfair!
...but still, it can't be bahh..
God won't give us problems we can't handle.
You'll understand me if you were in my shoes.
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Sometimes I wish I was adopted by some rich person, though not famous, I don't wish for that, I just wish I could be free like the others, and although I know I won't feel any much family's love.
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I think something's wrong with me, lately.
I don't think I've been myself.
I've been hating myself, also..
GRRRRRRR!!
Now I believe what others say that life is unfair!
...but still, it can't be bahh..
God won't give us problems we can't handle.
Signing off, sincerely yours..
Chiaw Yuen
Chiaw Yuen
Labels: Gossip Girls, Grudges, Movies, Passport to Paris
Spoiler!
I'm wondering right now how can my day could ever get more worse?!
This is just a disaster.
I'm sick, I'm lost, I'm sorry.
I don't even know if I should talk to anyone right now!
I've come to realize that I've been a spoiler.
always the spoiler.
I don't think I should talk to anyone right now.
I'm not sure what my fxcking mouth would say
and myself would do!
I don't even know where I'm heading to..
This is just a disaster.
I'm sick, I'm lost, I'm sorry.
I don't even know if I should talk to anyone right now!
I've come to realize that I've been a spoiler.
always the spoiler.
I don't think I should talk to anyone right now.
I'm not sure what my fxcking mouth would say
and myself would do!
I don't even know where I'm heading to..
Labels: Lost
On Nazim & Yuen's 2nd Monthsary~
His name is
Mohammad Nazim Zainal.
Still the sexiest and the man that I love.
It's been two months, it's been really hectic.
you're busy, I'm busy.
but you loving me, I'm loving you more;
you're in pain, I'm in pain..
you're dying, I'm dying even more.
I don't know what's been happening lately
but remember, I LOVE YOU!!!
and I will always do!
never until it's proven..
words were never enough for me.
I have not much to say right now
maybe later in the afternoon.
I just wish I could hear you right now..
so then you could take all those words out
from your chest to me like before~
especially when you're
I really miss you and I'm really looking forward of meeting you soon!
I hope we could sort things out well again..
It's getting tough, but we gotta be wiser.
Post again later.
very much love,
from your girlfriend; Chiaw Yuen.
from your girlfriend; Chiaw Yuen.
Labels: boyfriend, Cry, Love, Monthsary, Nate, Nazim, Pictures
Monday, September 15, 2008
My Art Exam.
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Labels: Art
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Red; Giant; Birthdays!
Hello again readers! Just so you know, I have been really busy with my exams lately and yeah. I haven't gone into any parties or yes, the mall. It's a Sunday and all I've gone to was Lucky Restaurant those chinese food you call "Dim Sum" are nicely served. xP After that, we forced daddy to bring us to Giant since we only dropped by last time when it was new. So this time we went in =) yes, I've got new clothes. I have a big tent now, but I might just play with it inside my place. HAHA! nah, my lil bro's gonna be using it for some scout camps in school. Uhm, soooo... there was a party last night and I wasn't able to go, for some reasons. One of the reasons would be "she and he wasn't gonna be there".. but yeah, in the end also, she was there. HA! Crap! Anyhoos, I wanna greet those two birthday celebrants! =) and sorry if I wasn't able to go to their party! and they are my COOLEST DANCING CHURCH SIBLINGS ever!
13th September, 2008.
HAPPYSweet Sixteen 17th Birthday To Jean Pierre! :D
Before; 2006.
HAPPY
Before; 2006.
After =) 2008, during my birthday.
HAHA yes ex-boyfriend, I cheated on you.Nah Jay, never did and never will to Nazim =)
and oh, don't get me wrong.
This is my brother's best friend
who I also treat as if he's my real big brother!
Bro, if you're reading this..
I'm telling you that I'm sooo gonna kick ur ass when you get here.
You haven't visit for a LONG LONG TIME! GRRR.
We miss you! Do back flips
nah, kidding. I just wanna tell people that you're good at it ;]
and oh, I posted the picture when you were younger because
I wanted to show people that you haven't change a bit, physically..
and I wanna tell them that you, Mart and Nikki touched my digicam
when I was away to school that day. GRRR!
..Nah I'm just playing, you did change in some ways..
but I don't know where xP
Kuya JP dearest, we miss you, visit soon.
and hope you had a blast on your birthday!
love, your lil chinoy siblings.
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12th September, 2008.
and also to my dearest Ate Leah! =)
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, sis!
I hope you had a really good day on your birthday.
You're already 18, and you can get a license already.
WOOOO! xD
Lucky you. Well sorry I wasn't able to come for your birthday..
didn't even get to greet you on your very day..
I really miss you, when can we hang out ah?
and oh, readers, this lady right here
she can dance! ;) she's one of the awesomest, I tell you.
I've known her for years and years now..
it's sad that I don't get to hang out with her and the others anymore..
I miss you all! ='( hoohoohoo~
anyways, I really hope you had a great birthday..
because 18 years of god's goodness in your life =)
18 is special, remember =)
love much,
Chiaw Yuen :)
Labels: dance, Giant, Happy Birthday, Nate, Nazim, Pictures, Red, Studies, YFC