Hello readers slash bloggers slash whoever you are reading this!

I know I haven't blog for awhile. Hm, I got back from the Philly a few days ago. almost a week ago, actually. And... why do I sound so busy? or was it just I... staying away from the pc for some reasons? Nawh, after I got back, I slept a lot like I've been awake for only 9 or 10 hours per day. Wooow! 0___0 Never really over slept since. HAHA Well as you know, I've had the greatest times in Phils, as always. and there's always this feeling that "I wanna stay there!" whenever I stay in Phils. Well, you see, the greatest feeling I have there is that, I'm happy. Not that I'm not happy in Brunei or whatsoever like that. But, I think in Brunei, there's just not much people to look at, I feel the love around in Phils more than I ever could in Brunei. Love from my families there, my brothers, my cousins, my aunts and uncles, and most especially my lovable grandmama.

Currently talking to Mr.Acoustic =)
10.56pm??? accepted a call.

I ain't no gold-digger, just a sexy-lover! HAHAH I'm right, right?

Thinking that we're still "WE". Just to make myself feel HAPPY.

Vain much?

Anyhoos, is anybody willing to hang out with me and watch TWILIGHT as soon as it's PREMIERED?!







Jared Followill & Caleb Followill.
(Discovered from Ate JRielle's FB. xD)

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Oct 19th

Happy Happy Birthday to........

*This picture was taken March 23, 2008*

firstly, my lovely momma.

second, my half brother, Loo Kuoh Shien.

and thirdly, to my ex-boyfriend
superman who goes by the name Jeremy Singh Sekhon.
haha man, stay handsome & thank you for being an awesome "lecturer".
HAHAHAH. whateber laah asshole. ^_____^ Peace out!

*These two pictures were taken on the 27th of January, 2008.*



and on the 20th of October,
Happy birthday to my handsome cousin
si Norman Billy B. Ramos
who's in the philly right now.

Love You All! =)

So today it was supposed to be our 3rd Monthsary,
but unfortunately we screwed up ending like we were before
like the day we first met except a little duller -like strangers.

We had the best good`ol times and the bad times,
sometimes I still think about the greatest moments with you
and things around me, all of it reminds me of you.

You are the
WORSE BEST oh-so-sexy-boyfriend that I had ever have,
oh don't get me wrong, I was just trying to say you're the most different.

Things went wrong by surprise and we misunderstood each other,
I misunderstood you a lot, and so I realize I shouldn't have done what was planned..
yes, there was a plan, well, a so-called-plan.
but you know, I really have to explain that to you one day,
when I'm ready to and when you're ready to hear them.
It might not matter to you anymore but do hear me out.

I'm not going to say it because I want you back,
not even because I need you back,
it's just to let myself be clear to you.

I didn't really mean to hurt you.
I guess people were right too that it shouldn't always be ALL my fault.
But I guess you're right also, at the point why we had to be like this.

You're like a Chris Brown all over me singing "say goodbye".
What more can I say? I don't wanna make myself be more over fond of anything.

It's not a farewell, nor a goodbye, but a hello to you again.
Welcome to my life and being one of my best friends..

Best friends, because........................
you know a lot about me except until the time I misunderstood you.
and you were there at the times I needed you,
you held my hand and asked me to be strong and then asked me to look you in the eye
and everything will be alright..
and things did went well, because you loved me.

I remember "that day", we held on to each other
and I never let you go.
And like I said, you can have me until whenever you like.
and promise promise, I'll never leave you.
Except for the country-leaving-blablabla lahh..
Never leave you as in.. when you need me, I'll be here.
I'll not leave and go away, neither would I not listen nor be your enemy.
So like I said again, remember the things I've said before, I meant them every single way!

But if one day, you forgot them already, you can ask if you like.
I remember my vows, not just by words, but with my whole heart.
Good friends, aren't we?
HAHA just that a certain monkey shouldn't eat a certain cicak.
or perhaps a certain goblin should still play with a certain doll.
WTF!? HAHA

Maaaaan, I'm sooo gay, except for the fact that I'm a female. HAHAH apakann!?!

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R.I.P. Abdul Qamarudin Wafi, I pray and prayed for you.
[2 years 2 months]

"A true friend is a brother in spirit." by Mohd Nazim Zainal.

If somehow you're reading this, I wish and pray you all the best.
I never met you, though I wish I would've.
I've only heard about you, I know a bit things about you.
Sometimes, I could sense it, you're somewhere around.

I hope, I wish, and I pray, you a brother and a true friend of Nazim
Rest in peace. Amin. // Amen.
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To all OCTO-PUSsy-berians birthday celebrants,

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!
whoeber you are. whereber you are.

Oct 4th, Glen Chong.
Oct 5th, Aiman Zainal.
Oct 9th, Farah Zainal.
Oct 10th, Mikko Shiu.
Oct 12th, Thien Leng.
Oct 13th, Phelimon.

Oct 17th, (My Ex-Neighbour) Melanie Nambiar.
Oct 19th, (My Mom) Susana.
Oct 19th, (My half-brother) Kuoh Shien.
Oct 19th, My (SuperHotExBoyfriend) Jeremy Singh Sekhon.
Oct 20th, (My Cousin) Norman Billy Ramos.
Oct 27th, (MyHoneys) Joycelyn Singh Sekhon.

Love You All! =)

His name is
Mohammad Nazim Zainal.

Still the sexiest and the man that I love.

It's been two months, it's been really hectic.
you're busy, I'm busy.
but you loving me, I'm loving you more;
you're in pain, I'm in pain..
you're dying, I'm dying even more.

I don't know what's been happening lately
but remember, I LOVE YOU!!!
and I will always do!

..I still don't believe in "forever"..
never until it's proven..
words were never enough for me.

I have not much to say right now
maybe later in the afternoon.
I just wish I could hear you right now..
so then you could take all those words out
from your chest to me like before~
especially when you're "sozzled" xP

I really miss you and I'm really looking forward of meeting you soon!
I hope we could sort things out well again..
It's getting tough, but we gotta be wiser.

Post again later.

Okay, I am so not feeling well right now.
Things have been very disturbing and I'm misunderstood, somehow..?

I had not have the loveliest morning,
I had not have the sunny afternoon;
and all day it's been cold,
it's been cold in my environment, it's been cold in myself.

I've been stuck in my room for pratically the whole day
can't even bother to eat a piece of meat or something 24 hours
but sweets and fruits and taste bittersweet love.

A night that freaks me out with thunderstorms and heavy rains;
the things that I'm scared of, the things that blows my mind crazy

but... things inside my chest/ heart blows my mind even crazier...
I would wanna let them out
I would wanna shout them out
..I'm just really disturbed and still farking paranoid

I'm scared that one day
I'll lose Nazim, because it's inevitable;
I'm scared that one day
I can't be with you anymore.
I'm scared that one day
you'll get tired of me and eventually leave.
I'm scared that one day
you'll never click me as much as before
I'm scared that one day
I can never never have you anymore.

How pathetic I could be to think too much of that. *sigh*
bitch-slap me? will you?

I didn't let you go because I love you too much to let go,
that even I myself would fight with my parents about us.
They don't understand, they don't know how I feel
I was in the middle of an almost death and life situation
I almost cut myself and run away
but as I promised not to, I didn't..
because I love you too much to break it..
I might have broke a promise once,
but I'll never make that happen ever again.
It's what I say, and I must practice what I vowed to.

I don't want you to blame yourself,
because it's so not your fault.
I might have laughed a little because
a song reflects on you
"You can put the blame on me, put the blame on me"
it's funny at that point but it hurts me that it hurts you
when you blame yourself, I feel more blamed myself
it felt as if it's double times or more to me.

There are some things I couldn't tell you right away
because it's not nice to tell you over the phone, or online wherever
but in person, if I see you the next time, I will tell you
and the reason why I doubt about HER.

and it's crazy that I would cry myself to sleep often
I would think about the most negative thoughts to sleep,
how ridiculous I could be, how pathetic!
but I can't help it, I tried to, and sometimes I just fail not to.

I can be positive in some ways
because I know and I'm sure that you love me
but I tell you right now, I love you more than you'll ever know.

and baby, I'm glad that you're learning to be patient now, somehow..

I Love You, Mohammad Nazim Zainal!

and baby, you're the man that I wanna grow old with.

and if you love me that much, wait for me;
and I can honestly promise you that you won't be waiting for nothing.
It might be a little early to say things like these
but let's just not expect and put up our hopes too high
and I'll keep my mouth shut =X

but I hope you remember,
no matter how the tide gets too high,
I'll still love you & hold on tight
and if it's gone, I 'll love you even more.

I Love Mohd. Nazim bin Hj. Zainal Abidin!

now I think I can sleep. HAHAH
between, I chatted with
Nazim's COOLEST COUSIN EVER namanya Zara ;)
a little while ago..like around 6pm or 7pm?
first time chatting with her by surprised xP
through Nazim's msn, though.

11.29pm
He texted and made me smile.
Oh yes, I'm happy :)
but I'm not gonna reply, or should I?

I trust you but I doubt about things you don't tell me..
though I know sometimes, some things aren't just meant to be said.
Oh well, I think I should and better stop my head
from thinking over way too much.
*sigh* I Love You way over the boundaries ;|


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The COOLEST ZARA in the world!
The adorable babies in the world [link]!
The caring B.I.L aka Azim in the world!
The LOVELIEST BOYFRIEND in the widest universe!
you just made my day, hm?

bah..gotta hit the sack!
I have classes tomorrow! and guess what?
I get to go home at 12 noon and not 1 o`clock!

and oh, I'm fasting :)
Chiaw Fei, sister dearest also fasting with me xP

HAPPY RAMADHAN!

I wanna grow old with you.
I can't live my life without you anymore.
I don't wanna ever go and leave.
I don't see how I can get tired of you
making my heart beat 24/7 ;P
because you know I love you 24/7
and if words are not enough
I'll stop talking :)

I might hardly ever see you
but it doesn't change the way I feel about you
thinking about you still makes my heart
go JUMPY-WHOOPEE! HAHA


I LOVE YOU!
(you know who you are && your name is Mohd. Nazim bin Hj Zainal Abidin/Ali)



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my mind's in DISTURBIA?
you're my DISTURBIA;
the DISTURBIA in my head.

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You know you're 24/7 here(in my heart) xD





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and a video recommanded from B.I.L. aka Azim =D



He said it was meaningful :)

well, I can say it's pretty cute! ;)

A note for my oh-so-retrosexual boyfriend ♥ ;D

Hello baby!
I know you'll be reading this in a few more hours.


Happy 1st Monthsary!


Remember 3am? I woke up with a ring just
when you first said "I Love You" to me.
It wasn't that fancy ol` sexy thing you do to other girls
that made me notice you the very first time we've met
but it was something extra-ordinary.
Perhaps, it was you looking so much alike
a soooper-handsome-monkey
(ooo, where can we even find that?)
Nah baby, I'm kidding. HAHAH!!
It's your smile and your laughing eyes,
wasn't your hair-flip! GAY! xD

You cordially talked to me that very first day we met,
yet I was so speechless and shy that I didn't speak a word but action.
I was amazed by your eyes, your smile and your laugh,
honestly, not by your own so-called-sexy skills!

Azim: He's nice kan?
Yuen: Yeah~ and cute!
Azim: He's nice oh?
Yuen: and cute! *sigh*

Nazim: HAHAHAHAHA!! oh, don't mind me.

*smiles at Nazim*

Nazim: AHAHAHAHAH !!
Yuen: *smiling all the way*

Your own unique personality,
no other man I see was like you,
you're just so different..
and yes, also even different in
other girl's eyes compare to mine! xP

When you were in Beijing, I dreamt about you
when I'm asleep, nights and nights,
you come into my dreams;
The reason why I called when you were away,
simply put, I missed you without realizing
what the main reason was.

I thank god that I found you.
I'm really glad you chose me.
I'm happy that I'm with you.

The very tough promises that I said I'll promise to keep,
I am serious about that.

I want to tell the whole world right now
about how much you mean to me that
I love you so much,
that not even a billion or more words could ever describe it.

Other people might not understand,
but that doesn't matter.
I've got you and you've got me.
We'll hold on to each other even through whatever
and like you said, make this work and perhaps
hopefully we'll be more stronger
with each passing day, each passing hour.

We might not see each other much, though
that just makes us miss each other more,
but nothing'll change the fact inside my heart.

One month isn't long, but we filled it with so much memories
and it feels like we were longer than that.

We've got that monkey-fever!
(kind of missing that, though; HEHEH)
We've got that P.D.A. sickness!
(which I couldn't get through that night)

I love the way you amaze me with your ways.
Sometimes, when I'm paranoid,
you know how to calm me down.
When I'm sick, you know how to make me feel better
simply just by making me happy and smile.

You know when you stare, it makes me melt.
Before meeting you, my tummy fills with butterflies..
and still we always try to impress each other, in a funny way.

and how can love be ever blind if I can see you and you are love? HAHAH.
might not make a lot of sense but chyeah.

I love everything about you.
I love the way you love me.
I love the whole you!

and you know, without you,

I'll still be that bad girl who cuts herself.
I know I sound sooo (whatever-you-call-it) corny right now,
but I swear all this I say is true.

and well, baby, I Love You! and will always do.
I might not believe in "forever",
but that doesn't mean I don't believe in eternity.
you may not be that "forever" man
but baby you're for my eternity.
You can have me for as long as you want :)

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and I'll never go far away from you;
still oh-so-obsessed with you! ;D

and again, I Love You!
Happy First Monthsary! =)