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Saturday, November 15, 2008

4th Month.

Matadoe Lovin` on a Friday.

Vain striked while waiting for Kuya Miks to arrive x_x

Aiya. Why hogging my phone?! TSK TSK.
*MAMIH*

STOLEN shot x____x"" FEI!!

so what do I love in Matadoe?

wrong angle. HAHAH.

Hungry? Hungry? Hungry?
Want some? xD

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Random Pictures.

17th October, 2008.

29th September, 2008

19th September, 2008.

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HAPPY Sweet 16th BIRTHDAY dearest Ate Pathsie!

Happy Birthday Mezz! :) our old pictures. remember them?

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, BBZ Norchel!

*will put up Melissa Harijono and I's pic here toms*
LOVES! :D

Hope you all had a great one! =D

.....................................................My girlfriend, Leena left today for her haj. I will super dooper miss her like crazy :( I can't see her until probably next year. How does that sound like? Ugh.

Anyways hm today is an idk day. Morning was terrific! =) Went to the RTB Radio Station with DJ Izan on with the three of us Alif, Chin2x and Me. We had a great time. Plus, it was my first time so I didn't really made any much sound on the mic, too shy every now and then whenever it's my first time. and oh! you guys should watch "KEY TO THE V.I.P." on Channel [V] I've been watching and it's reminding me about how I knew Jeremy. HAHA that hot ass! anyhoos, I won't be long here for now. It's just a quick update.

and to people who messaged on my CBOX...

I will check your blogs and do the tagging thing possibly this Monday or either tomorrow k :)

16th November, 2008

and and.... Happy 4th ~~supposed-to-be~~ monthsary to my ex-baby! =)

it's just something to make me happy... don't mind me. I just really miss him.

Bah I only had 4 hours sleep last night and an hour or 2 siesta just now. So yeps, gotta hit the slack in a few minutes. ~~I gotta lie to myself to keep myself happy.~~ I don't even know if I'm having some schizophrenia. Gawd, wake me up lah. HAHA but it's nice to dream~ *added* xP

Oh wait, I've almost forgot. Let's announce Chin2x and Alif's day. HAHA Chin called Alif a "Mister" today as in... like husband like yooo! HAHAH bleh. Bah I gotstagooo.

signs off, mwamwa.

xoxox ChiawYuen

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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Mrs. Dulce(Candy) Followill! ;D

Hello readers slash bloggers slash whoever you are reading this!

I know I haven't blog for awhile. Hm, I got back from the Philly a few days ago. almost a week ago, actually. And... why do I sound so busy? or was it just I... staying away from the pc for some reasons? Nawh, after I got back, I slept a lot like I've been awake for only 9 or 10 hours per day. Wooow! 0___0 Never really over slept since. HAHA Well as you know, I've had the greatest times in Phils, as always. and there's always this feeling that "I wanna stay there!" whenever I stay in Phils. Well, you see, the greatest feeling I have there is that, I'm happy. Not that I'm not happy in Brunei or whatsoever like that. But, I think in Brunei, there's just not much people to look at, I feel the love around in Phils more than I ever could in Brunei. Love from my families there, my brothers, my cousins, my aunts and uncles, and most especially my lovable grandmama.

Me and my kuya(big bro).

I feel so cold in Brunei. Was it the heartache? Was it just me? or the people? or the environment? Or I have been anti-social lately? Orrrrrr.... what? haven't been out?

I feel the differences so much! In phils, everywhere is just people. In Brunei, I feel a little empty, somehow. I couldn't figure out what's my real problem! But it's not that bad, I can still say.

I just need my brothers, my cousins and all my family. I terrifically don't need a boyfriend. HAHAH Sorry boys, but I am not ready to CROSS THE LINE. Want me? Why don't we be just friends? You know it's better than being in a relationship. Because you see, things happen, and most likely we'll end up being "whatsoever" already not in a relationship neither we are friends. I don't want that to ever happen again. Just can't be commited to another man after all this.

That's me and my kuya(big bro) again.

I have lost someone that means so much to me and you cannot believe what I've gone through. (not exaggerating!) I'm serious. It's funny somehow huh. I guess it's just too much for me. I fought for that even when some part of the world's against our relationship. I love him that much, almost to give up everything for him and wouldn't care much about what others would say or do to me. I think what I did on giving him dissapointments, he misunderstood and had too much to think about. I haven't still had a single clue on my head why it's happened. Maybe he didn't really love me? Maybe he doesn't love me enough to accept me, the real me, the old me? Or was it because of the me, now?

I just need to see him being happy, maybe that'll be enough. But I don't know somehow I still can't stop thinking about all the things that we've gone through. Sure it wasn't long, but the love was too strong. I'm glad he was happy the day I never left him. But after all that, the long-short times that we hadn't click on each other and made me misunderstood him. I didn't realize it until he finally said and THOUGHT I wasn't there for him anymore. I realized I'm wrong for what I did to leave him out when he wanted to talk to me because I thought he was ignoring me. Sad to say. Sad to understand. Sad to know. Hard to accept the truth.

Christmas is around the corner and ....... I only want one thing for christmas, the man who was once given by god to me... Maybe he was "THE ONE", "THE MAN", that I had to learn and inspire a lot from.

Glad to say, he inspired me in a lot of ways and things. Some things I used to hate in life seemed to become the other way around. He made me open my eyes to the beautiful things in life. and made me thought "I didn't know life was this beautiful when you love all sorts of other different things outside the box." A little weird, I feel. A bit stupid, don't chu think so? ...I used to say "I hate this; I hate that; It's so annoying; it's not nice!" Now I just had to say they're all beautiful. All sorts of things god has made :) Of course, right?

and oh, he also inspired me to STUDY alot. =___="" HAHA how does that sound like?

Currently talking to Mr.Acoustic =)
10.56pm??? accepted a call.

Anyhoos. Yeah the line got cut off. HAHA!

Hmmm, oh yes, FINALLY, kuya Bimbo has called! :D Like last last night.
Gaaaawwwd, I supercalifragilly miss him! HAHA! I'm not saying I don't miss you others, of course I do! Just that this is my rasta-breakdancer-kuya-ninong! :) Awesome dancer!
Kuya, if you're reading this, GOOD LUCK sa job mu!

Dancing again, on the Pasko'ng Pinoy 2008! Do come and watch! :) It'll be held at the Scout Center, Mata-Mata. And oh, about PROMS, which one should I go eh? =/ HAHA more invites, then I'll go. HAHAH booooys, hear it from a gold-digger! xP HAHAH kidding!

I ain't no gold-digger, just a sexy-lover! HAHAH I'm right, right?

Hmmmm... when should I go out? HAHAH. I've been home and just school lately. No elsewhere I have gone to. Except for that all-Sunday-same-old-sched! DUH. Dimsum and Jerudong beach! HAHAH You have no idea how much I miss KB! and SERIA! and the CHURCH! and all you people! and him, of course. *sigh* I guess I'll always have to stick with where I am now without him. It still hurts and I'm like having a wishful thinking.

Thinking that we're still "WE". Just to make myself feel HAPPY.

Vain much?

Anyhoos, is anybody willing to hang out with me and watch TWILIGHT as soon as it's PREMIERED?!

BIRTHDAYS!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to..........

November-ians!

1st; Ervin! Sis Zelle!
5th; Remy, KBJrockaz//TroubleMaker!
8th; Jaybeeee! Danice!
9th; Jackie, Mezz! Karmina!
10th; Shadeeeeeeeq!
11th; Melissa (sister-labku!)
15th; Ate Pathsy! Ate Janelley! Chin2x Bbz!

who's next? =)

Partying this Saturday night :) swimming...wooohooo!
wanna tag along? xP

Bah, don't chu think I've said too much? HAHA I have more to say but yeah. and oh, tomorrow Imma go to the dance prac again, that's if I'm not lazy enough. HAHA sure not lah.

Oh oh! Here's someone I loike! Definitely! ;D

The Brother Followills!

HAHA ain't they hot? fuh-uh-kin-t0o-hawt! xD
from the Rolling Stones. HAHA roll the stones. blah!

Jared Followill & Caleb Followill.
(Discovered from Ate JRielle's FB. xD)

HAHA baaaaaahhhh.. bah black sheep, have u any wool? yes sir yes sir, bye bye wolf! LALALALA!! Good night. :)

signing off with lots of love,
Miss Dulce(Kendiee) Followill!

Labels: boyfriend, Brunei, Happy Birthday, Lost, Love, Nate, Nazim, Philippines, Pictures

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Saturday, October 18, 2008

Congratsi; Open House.

Just some of the pictures I edited/ compiled today.

Taken this morning :)

Boring bah. So took lotsa pics in my phone.

and berry bad ah, I didn't study today. BOOOO!!! GRRRR!!

I go crazy if I don't read anything a day, like books, I mean.

GAAAAAHHH. and tomorrow! WOOOOO!!

I'm gonna be a MOM! yes, a mother. A godmother, actually.

and Kathlene S. Tan's my fourth godchild.

I think she's the one who replaced Nazim. HAHAH kidding~

Well they have the same birthdays, and man, of course I'm hellarHAPPY

for being her god-mother, I've never expected that. HAHAH

I think they made me her godmom because.......

that first day when baby Kath's in my arms, she was (how do you say that?) looks safe or something like that... I don't know how to say it, but yeah, the babies get fast asleep.

The same thing that made me became Aiana Yzabel's godmom.

okay so second thing, me, the youngest godmom of them all... HAHAH

well, I mean like.. among all the godmoms and god-dads of my godchilds,

I'm the youngest, HAHAH in fact, also the SEXIEST. BLEHHH! HAHAH apaan.

I as the youngest, there's a lotta advantage, because...

when my godchilds gets a little bit more older, I'll still be young. Know what I mean?

Anyhoos, I'll post pictures tomorrow of me and my NEW god-daughter.

OPEN HOUSE; My neighbour.

Wow, it was grande! =D big house man, aku sakai kaliaa.

Ate Monica was also there. The Philly Embassador was also there.

and so was her daughter Bianca. I don't think she remembers me though.

We've met before in like... Jaytee's Sweet Sixteenth Birthday Party.
and that was like 2 years ago? I think =/ woah, long time ago ehh.. time flies so fast.

Anyhoos, man, I loved the house, and too the food. Graaaavehh! Amazed ako. HAHAH xP

Fei texting again =__="'

Oh, I'll be making her blog tomorrow. =D She will be posting ;D HAHA laaabyou sis!

Real flowers.

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Thursday, October 16, 2008

3rd Monthsary.

So today it was supposed to be our 3rd Monthsary,
but unfortunately we screwed up ending like we were before
like the day we first met except a little duller -like strangers.

We had the best good`ol times and the bad times,
sometimes I still think about the greatest moments with you
and things around me, all of it reminds me of you.

You are the
WORSE BEST oh-so-sexy-boyfriend that I had ever have,
oh don't get me wrong, I was just trying to say you're the most different.

Things went wrong by surprise and we misunderstood each other,
I misunderstood you a lot, and so I realize I shouldn't have done what was planned..
yes, there was a plan, well, a so-called-plan.
but you know, I really have to explain that to you one day,
when I'm ready to and when you're ready to hear them.
It might not matter to you anymore but do hear me out.

I'm not going to say it because I want you back,
not even because I need you back,
it's just to let myself be clear to you.

I didn't really mean to hurt you.
I guess people were right too that it shouldn't always be ALL my fault.
But I guess you're right also, at the point why we had to be like this.

You're like a Chris Brown all over me singing "say goodbye".
What more can I say? I don't wanna make myself be more over fond of anything.

It's not a farewell, nor a goodbye, but a hello to you again.
Welcome to my life and being one of my best friends..

Best friends, because........................
you know a lot about me except until the time I misunderstood you.
and you were there at the times I needed you,
you held my hand and asked me to be strong and then asked me to look you in the eye
and everything will be alright..
and things did went well, because you loved me.

I remember "that day", we held on to each other
and I never let you go.
And like I said, you can have me until whenever you like.
and promise promise, I'll never leave you.
Except for the country-leaving-blablabla lahh..
Never leave you as in.. when you need me, I'll be here.
I'll not leave and go away, neither would I not listen nor be your enemy.
So like I said again, remember the things I've said before, I meant them every single way!

But if one day, you forgot them already, you can ask if you like.
I remember my vows, not just by words, but with my whole heart.
Good friends, aren't we?
HAHA just that a certain monkey shouldn't eat a certain cicak.
or perhaps a certain goblin should still play with a certain doll.
WTF!? HAHA

Maaaaan, I'm sooo gay, except for the fact that I'm a female. HAHAH apakann!?!

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R.I.P. Abdul Qamarudin Wafi, I pray and prayed for you.
[2 years 2 months]

"A true friend is a brother in spirit." by Mohd Nazim Zainal.

If somehow you're reading this, I wish and pray you all the best.
I never met you, though I wish I would've.
I've only heard about you, I know a bit things about you.
Sometimes, I could sense it, you're somewhere around.

I hope, I wish, and I pray, you a brother and a true friend of Nazim
Rest in peace. Amin. // Amen.
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love dearly, yours truly,
Chiaw Yuen Loo

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Friday, October 10, 2008

Mahal Ko Sya..

Kahit malayo at malaya na tayo sa isa't-isa,
hindi pa rin nagbabago and pagtingin ko sa'yo
...MAHAL PA RIN KITA...

Kahit baka hindi mo na ako mahal, mamahalin pa rin kita;
kahit magalit ka pa sa akin ng paulit-ulit,
kahit makahanap ka pa ng iba, ikaw pa rin ang mamahlin ko
pang habang buhay, hindi kita makakalimutan
tutupad pa rin ako sa mga pangako ko sa'yo
hindi talaga kita'ng iiwan, kahit man lang na mag kaibigan na lang tayo.

kahit dapat hindi na kita'ng dapat mahalin, mahal pa rin kita eh.
basta promise, hindi kita iiwan, kahit kailan.

FOREVER AND EVER. AMEN =)

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Monday, September 22, 2008

3 Muskeeters!

Definitely, 3 of my favourites ;D
CHYEAHHH!

The Insomnia Bros. Vid 2!

Do go to the actual one, so you could give a rate & comment yeah.

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So awhile ago, not awhile actually, Sunday afternoon.
I slept at 6 in the morning, forgot what I did, I had dreams and forgotten them.
but they were so-so. who else could there be in my dreams? HAHA!

So yeah, I feel happy for making love for about 2 hours or more with my BOOKS
on a Sunday afternoon :) it was uh, terrific! HAHA!
It wasn't just books, not story books lah. School books, something that should really be worth.

So yes, I just made love with the books, damn yeah, sexy. HAHA
apakann. WTH am I saying! HAHA
Okay I just noticed I've been "HAHA"-ing.
That could mean I'm smiling, or either laughing, or being sarcastic or whatever.

and Bro is back from the school camp.
Daaaamn, he's black. My lil brother's black. xD nadawah~
He's dark okay, and my youngest is like so fair =X
anyhoos, I know that doesn't concern you or anything but whatever.

Hm, so later, I'm gonna be dating.
YES, dating~ dating my best friend since her birthday is like TOMORROW
which I cannot attend or go wherever because I cannot sleep at the night,
I had to be ready by 5 in the morning and leave to Miri
then probably KL, if not, maybe Johore.
wherever dad takes me and my siblings. oh well~

sure it's gonna be fun, hope I don't get fat!
c0z I'm really chubby right now, as you see.
It's not just a feeling, it's true.
and if I'm this chubby, I don't feel good, somehow.

So yes, school tomorrow.
after that, pergi dating sama si Chrysh :)
then my room - tidy it before mom will! because I don't like people touching my stuffs~
then pack my bags, so I don't need to rush the next day.
then, make love some more~ *wink* with the books~ =|
How good is that? then 23 night, chat with me online lah.
Not gonna sleep at that time, so yeah.

BOOHOO! Can't go online for 5 days.
SOOOO GONNA MISS BRUNEI PEOPLE!
HAHA like it's forever but it's not~
Hm? okay, running out of words.

Oh yeah, it was good knowing Mika-Chiuh! and one of the coolest ladies in KB xD

out.

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Sunday, September 21, 2008

Insomnia; No in Malaysia.

Remember I have Insomnia? and probably also "MONOMANIA"
Somehow, it's back. It started gradually when I was in my Year 7 and until now yeah.. so it wasn't back, it'was just there all along making me not sleep early everday... Tried to sleep early, wake up again TOO early in the morning..then couldn't get back to sleep..

Oh well, I'm getting sleep now anyway~

GOOD MORNING BRUNEI! :)
GOOD MORNING, SUNSHINE!

3 more days and then MALAYSIA.. I'm sure it's gonna be fun, but yeah, I'm definitely gonna be missing you, Brunei. I can't really go online there sooo yeah.. I'm just gonna write things down in my diary again and post when I'm back, just like when I used to.. except last time, there was too many to post, so I didn't get to post them, got lazy. HAHAH. Hope this time, I won't.

So Brunei friends, what do you want from Johore and KL? I sure will try my best this time to get you guys something :) you're all special to me, okay? esp you, Nazim, and my bestfriends (Ohmagawd, there's so many of you =/ HAHAH aku akan cuba ok?) ;)
HAHA! well, do you know what do I expect people to answer when I ask them about what they want?

Chiaw Yuen : "So, what do you want from there?"
: "Nothing really... Just you..."

HAHA but if you really want something, sure :) Hope I have enough money and well, I'd probably shopping for those clothes, talk about expensive ones ;) you know what I like, those shirts with good quotes or just cool-whatever-words written xD

Okay, I think Imma hit the sack now, alright? Mwakz!

mwamwahs.

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♥Aku Sayang! ♥

My attempt of cheering my sister Zelle up :D
baby, t'waas 7UP! HAHA lame~

So I had another night with my sister Zelley-Welley whom I love very much.
Cheer up okay, babe/sis? :)
and well obviously, I LOVE HER TOO :D

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oh yeah, found one of my "litrato" from Viel's Blog :)
I actually think I look oh-so-cool there xD -What do you think?

Host unlimited photos at slide.com for FREE!

and this young man, yes,
the man that I love (the most)!

BABY!! Yes, I stole it from your Display Picture on MSN xD HAHA
Gaaaaddamn! looking at our pictures and your pictures makes me miss you more!
Shieett~ Just go do your work :) I'll be fine now, I promise.

Let me tell the readers, that

I LOVE MOHD. NAZIM ZAINAL.

Yes baby, I'm this loco about chuu~ *wink* ;]

yours truly,
Chi-marijuana-bulat ♥

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Chiaw Yuen

26th January