So today it was supposed to be our 3rd Monthsary,
but unfortunately we screwed up ending like we were before
like the day we first met except a little duller -like strangers.

We had the best good`ol times and the bad times,
sometimes I still think about the greatest moments with you
and things around me, all of it reminds me of you.

You are the
WORSE BEST oh-so-sexy-boyfriend that I had ever have,
oh don't get me wrong, I was just trying to say you're the most different.

Things went wrong by surprise and we misunderstood each other,
I misunderstood you a lot, and so I realize I shouldn't have done what was planned..
yes, there was a plan, well, a so-called-plan.
but you know, I really have to explain that to you one day,
when I'm ready to and when you're ready to hear them.
It might not matter to you anymore but do hear me out.

I'm not going to say it because I want you back,
not even because I need you back,
it's just to let myself be clear to you.

I didn't really mean to hurt you.
I guess people were right too that it shouldn't always be ALL my fault.
But I guess you're right also, at the point why we had to be like this.

You're like a Chris Brown all over me singing "say goodbye".
What more can I say? I don't wanna make myself be more over fond of anything.

It's not a farewell, nor a goodbye, but a hello to you again.
Welcome to my life and being one of my best friends..

Best friends, because........................
you know a lot about me except until the time I misunderstood you.
and you were there at the times I needed you,
you held my hand and asked me to be strong and then asked me to look you in the eye
and everything will be alright..
and things did went well, because you loved me.

I remember "that day", we held on to each other
and I never let you go.
And like I said, you can have me until whenever you like.
and promise promise, I'll never leave you.
Except for the country-leaving-blablabla lahh..
Never leave you as in.. when you need me, I'll be here.
I'll not leave and go away, neither would I not listen nor be your enemy.
So like I said again, remember the things I've said before, I meant them every single way!

But if one day, you forgot them already, you can ask if you like.
I remember my vows, not just by words, but with my whole heart.
Good friends, aren't we?
HAHA just that a certain monkey shouldn't eat a certain cicak.
or perhaps a certain goblin should still play with a certain doll.
WTF!? HAHA

Maaaaan, I'm sooo gay, except for the fact that I'm a female. HAHAH apakann!?!

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R.I.P. Abdul Qamarudin Wafi, I pray and prayed for you.
[2 years 2 months]

"A true friend is a brother in spirit." by Mohd Nazim Zainal.

If somehow you're reading this, I wish and pray you all the best.
I never met you, though I wish I would've.
I've only heard about you, I know a bit things about you.
Sometimes, I could sense it, you're somewhere around.

I hope, I wish, and I pray, you a brother and a true friend of Nazim
Rest in peace. Amin. // Amen.
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